ARGHHHH!!!!!

ok. seriously! can someones life suck less than mine???? a lil update for my fellow blog followers: 1. i probably did NOT get the nanny job in CT. 2. i got no friends. 3. im bored as hell cuz im stuck in my house 24/7 (hardly go out ANYWHERE!!) 4. no job. 5. no money. 6. no bf :(  i mean im hot n attractive n really nice so how come im single????!?! lifes not fair! so yea anyhoo... thats my life update... in addition things r still crappy wih family.. like im still not on speaking terms with my sis (have nothing 2 do with her or her kids) ...  i just want a good life! is that really 2 much 2 ask???? i want: 1. a bf. 2. friends. 3. a job. 4. money. 5. to get out of my shitty hometown. 6. 2 get married. 7. to have kids.... idk! if u have any ideas or leads about anything on my list please let me know!! lol...

So cute!!!

teen life

omg! is teenage life always this aggravating?? u cannot even imagine what i went through already and there is probably way more 2 come... but i mean i cant wait cuz i am turning 18 this coming march so then my worst years are practically over... my whole life i have been waiting 4 that day, cuz i am going 2 b an ADULT!!! my plans 4 18 changed though cuz as time went on i think i grew up and realized that some things i wanted r unrealistic. like a few years ago i wanted 2 get the hell out of my house. now i wanna focus on my schooling, and get my doctor degree, dont really care where i live! and as far as marriage is conserned, i dont wanna get married until i finish my degree 2 b a doctor. if i get married then i would want kids. if i have kids then my degree is over! and i really wanna focus on getting a good career...

sick

its not fair! i have been sick a whole week!! its crazy! my arms were killing a whole week, and one arm was so bad i couldnt ove it! it was horrible! then yesterday i couldnt breathe so my  mom called the paramedics... i didnt wanna go 2 the hospital, so i stuck it out and just slept in another room... but i still have a horrible couph, and cold! i am like almost always sick! its crazy! ok, whatever... i am like so bored... i am babysitting this week... getting 200 at the end, which i guess is 2day... then i might b a live- in nanny 4 a family in CT.

haha. funny pic!!

Where is the love???

k. seriously!!! where is the love???? i feel like im getting zero attention. like just last week my sis had a baby. i think my mom gave her more attention than she gave me, my whole life put 2gether! like she didnt even TALK 2 me that whole week!! her focus was on my stupid sister! u r probably wondering y i just called my sis stupid, or if ur not, whatevs... i am going to tell u anyways!! so basically my sis, who i consider dead, did something so horrible to me that it was like a PUNCH in the face- not a slap! you know how much i used to do 4 her b4 all this crap???!?!? so effin much! anyways what does she do? she tells her 3 year old daughter, my niece, that i am a horrible person and she should stay away from me. if that wasnt enough, my niece actually came over to me and said "ur a bad aunt and mommy said to stay away from u"...........  ok... now seriously! if THAT wasnt BAD enough... my sis goes over to my dad and tells him (REALLY loud so i can hear) that she doesnt want her daughter around me, and she doesnt trust me with her daughter. ( even though i babysat her a million times!!! guess that wasnt enough) so anyways.. thats how it is. i live in a disfunctional family... what can i say... so anyways getting back 2 my sis having a baby and getting all the attention... so she basically took all my attention away from me and i was left with zilch!